Things seem to be moving in the direction Beloved wanted with M. They have kept a professional connection during work & now they are going out "as friends", such as shopping, bowling, , dinner & drinks after work. While I was taking a bath this morning, he mentioned that their relationship is progressing & he is pretty sure it will become sexually romantic.
I am feeling a bit wonky about the situation, as I explained to him. If Beloved & M become sexual I will be losing something in their relationship. My thoughts are this. If they work together at least 30 hours a week, frequently alone, giving them the ability to have sex, chances are less likely Beloved & I will be having sex with me. As much as I would like to believe he would be able to have sex more than once a day, he cannot. After all, he is 52. In reality, he will be seeing far more of her in person & sexually then he will me. That makes me feel wonky.
The only thing I can do, is let things happen as they will & keep communication open.
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